time to spill the beans

i can officially spill the beans now that all necessary parties have heard the news straight from this horse's mouth. yes, i just called myself a horse. i'm okay with it.

two weeks from today i will embark on a new adventure and i cannot be more humbled and grateful for the opportunity. i'm leaving my official role as grammar guru at family first and will join the student team at my church. teenagers of charlotte, brace thyselves. i'm comin' for ya!

a few weeks ago, a very wise friend [cough cough Tracy Mann] sent me a quick email with the following thoughts and i quickly jotted them on a post-it note.

ah, transitions...always a hilarious gut check of faith versus initiative.

personal desires versus God-given commands, peace versus worry.

i've kept that note within arm's reach since that day. change is never easy...especially when there are more options on the table than one can possibly take and one has no conceivable idea of how to even begin weeding out options. thankfully, patience proved to be the golden ticket and some of those options eliminated themselves. phew. God was gracious to me on more than one occasion. i'm a confident decision maker, but i don't make quick decisions. so, of course quick was needed in more than a few instances the last few months and it nearly took me down for the count. key word: nearly.

one reason i dislike change is that it often means delivering less than desirable news. i'd rather pour vinegar in my eyes than have to tell someone something i know they're unprepared to hear and won't want to hear. but, my excitement over what the Lord orchestrated with this new position at my church trumped that dislike of being the bearer of bad news and i powered through. God is so faithful and i love the fact that His timing is utterly insane yet perfect at the same time. it means i can't take an ounce of credit for any of this, which is precisely how i prayed it would be.

a huge thanks to each of you who have encouraged me and prayed for me through the utter chaos and uncertainty of the last three months of my life. i'm confident that this is precisely where the Lord wants me and i'm tickled silly that my gifts and passions will be used to their full in this new role. i have such a soft spot for teenagers. watching them get the Gospel is what makes my heart sing, so calling that a job is enough to make me want to dance in the streets. i'll spare the citizens of charlotte, but i assure you the desire to dance is there.

here's to feeling like i'll be firing on all cylinders again and using everything i've got for the sake of the Gospel. God is so good!

bekah

live unashamedly :: laugh uncontrollably :: love unconditionally

settling isn't so bad

well, when i told you i'd be off the grid...i guess i meant it. i get terrible cell service inside my new condo so it took a hot minute to get all things technology working again. that being said, hopefully i'm back. i can't promise that i'll blog consistently, but i'm back. interpret that however you wish.

moving on...

i went on a run yesterday and had a moment of revelation as i was sucking wind on the last hill. [note to self: when you haven't run since december, running hills is a bad idea. abruptly going from florida terrain to north carolina terrain is also a bad idea] so as i was finishing my run, this thought hit me and nearly made me stutter step...

there is uncertainty in charlotte, but it's accompanied by hope and expectancy.

tampa was uncertainty accompanied by restlessness and frustration.

i don't know what this means or how things will play out. maybe i need to go for another run and it'll hit me again?? seriously though...i have no idea what lies ahead for me in my new city, but it excites me. i never want to leave. i would love to be here forever. those are words i haven't uttered in a really long time. i can see glimpses of why the Lord took me where He did in missouri and florida, but i don't see the big picture. that's His job. however, i do feel like i'm finally home. my heart is at rest. i'm feeling settled. this doesn't feel like another stop along the way. and that's refreshing to this wearied soul.

on that note, i have a few more boxes to unpack and things to put away before a certain sista friend roommate arrives next weekend. did i mention that? my one-and-only sista friend is moving in y'all. she's graduatin' and got an internship. yay God!

now come visit us!

bekah

live unashamedly :: laugh uncontrollably :: love unconditionally.

coming to fruition

well y'all, it's one week from today. this time next week i'll hopefully be on the outskirts of jacksonville headed on to savannah and then to charlotte. it's crazy to think that day is almost here since this hope of moving home to north carolina really came to fruition last august. eight months later, here i go!

quick update: the Lord graciously threw a hiccup in my steps last week after i applied for a condo rental and i spent all weekend praying for favor and a big fat YES from the owner. i got that YES on monday and was overjoyed (still am). i have a new home! in all of this, i'm reminded that God wants the glory and it's never anything that i do....it's always Him. always.

my new home!!

i posted this on facebook and twitter, but it's worth reiterating. it seems like every time i turn around, God makes another connection for me in charlotte...

i run across someone from high school

reconnect with someone from childhood

someone offers to have me over for dinner

someone offers to show me around

someone wants to meet for coffee or lunch

a friend wants me to meet her friend when i get there

someone offers to help me get plugged in at my new church

...you get the picture: community. it's a beautiful thing. i already feel home and i'm not even there yet. God is so good. His blessings blow me away time and time again.

all that being said, i'll be off the grid for a bit while i adjust and get settled in my new home. but i can't wait to call myself a north carolina resident again. come visit me!

bekah

live unashamedly :: laugh uncontrollably :: love unconditionally.